I feel so regretful…
I have studied hard and conducted many tasks as much as I can, but I think I haven’t become a good researcher yet.
It’s not only because I don’t have plenty of careers but also I haven’t considered what true research is thorough.
It’s been almost a year since I joined this institute but I haven’t published a single paper or patented anything.
When I was an undergraduate, I didn’t care about applying for an internship in the school or publishing a paper and had a few ups and downs in grades.
At least I might be able to console myself to some extent because I was a foolish student who had not decided what path I was going to.
But if I haven’t made any special research results until this year when I became interested in my field and started dreaming of entering graduate school in earnest, that would mean I still have a long way to go as a researcher.
I have consoled myself that if I study, develop and participate hard in the project, there will be research progress for me.
But it was my personal study after all, not a true “research.”
Research is meaningful in expanding the knowledge that mankind has accumulated through any theory that I have discovered and built, which is very different from the “learning” that simply ends alone in my head.
In the end, I think that proper research is completed only when it shows achievements to others, whether it is a paper or a patent, and contributes to the benefit of someone.
From now on I’m going to do real research.
I am going to write a paper although I have to do my own.
Of course, it may be very difficult to select a separate subject for personal research to make a publish while doing my job in the company.
But I would like to do some research which is fit for the literal meaning of “research”.
Although it is already late, but I will wake up now and do what I can.